This past weekend was so hard. Sara accused me of being insensitive. She cried and cried, so lonely and terrified by her life, and spit accusations at me about rarely holding up my end of our relationship. She said that I "am hard-wired not to care." Ouch.
I cannot pray. I need help. This passage is from Daily Prayer Online.
In God's loving presence I unwind the past weekend, starting from now and looking back, moment by moment. I gather in all the goodness and light, in gratitude. I attend to the shadows and what they say to me, seeking healing, courage, forgiveness.
Jesus always points us to life. I pray that I may recognise signs of growth and hope and follow them.
I do seek healing, courage, forgiveness. I need You. I need Your love to wash over me, so that I have more love to share. I wasn't doing anything nefarious. Just living my life. Now I'm aware that this is not enough. If I see suffering, I have to do something. How was I not aware of this? I was. I just chose not to think about it.
Lord, please forgive me. Re-orient me towards thinking about how to love those around me. I pray for wisdom, guidance, help. Then I go about my day and do whatever I would have done.
Please extract my pride. Take it away. I want to deal with my family humbly.
In Your son's name I pray,
Amen
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