Tricky Faith

I'm a planner, and I do my best for my children. And sometimes it's not enough, or it goes wrong. When that happens, I lose my ability to breathe deeply.

I researched swim lesson programs, knowing that lessons aren't very effective unless your child is swimming the whole time. That's the inherent problem with group lessons. Just sitting by the side of the pool while the other learners swim isn't efficient. Private lessons would be better. But while group lessons are moderately expensive, private lessons are so expensive that they are cost prohibitive. So I signed my girls up for the group lessons at the less expensive of the two local swim schools. 

It seemed like the best option because...

a. Over a three month period, I would save $200 over the cost of the other swim school.

b. The director assured me that the kids would be swimming the whole time, as long as they were in the semi-advanced group.

What happened was...

The girls ended up in a lower level class that requires them to sit at the side of the pool a lot. The instructor was rude and sour-faced. She told me that the girls were in the right class for them, and that it would be a long time before they moved up to the class where you're swimming the whole time and not just sitting and waiting your turn. 

My reaction was...

I am stressed out and burdened with the problem of what to do about this. I want to call the office and say...what exactly?

Make my life easier? Make my kids happy? Stop being so annoying?

Lord, I want to put this situation in Your hands. At the same time, I don't want to be a doormat. I just sent the swim director an email with a diplomatically worded statement of my concerns. 

I want to put this situation in Your hands, but what does that look like? Sitting back and doing nothing? Sending this email and THEN allowing You to work? This is the part of faith that is so tricky to me. I want to be a proactive person who ALSO trusts in You. I want to be able to breathe deeply, too.

Lord, I want, I want, I want. I'm sorry that I am so greedy. I am going to try to trust You.

In Your son's name I pray,

Amen