Quiet Time

I am really hurting over not having a quiet time with You in the morning. You know it, and I know it. I stop believing, and start letting the dreariness and disappointments of the world get to me.

I want to pray to You and ask You to make my morning quiet time possible again. But even as I pray it, I think about the fact that I've prayed for other things and nothing happened. When I am not in an early morning routine, spending time with You, this is where my mind goes.

I pray for it anyway. How can I get my quiet time back? It seems impossible right now. Can You make it possible? Lee doesn't seem willing to wake up earlier and take care of Lily in the morning. And if I'm being honest, I know that I wouldn't be willing to stay up late to take over one of his chores. So I'm stuck, waking up at 6:30 and not having a free moment to myself until 8:30.

I could start my iVillage work at 10 am. I could dedicate 9 a.m. - 9:45 a.m. to quiet time. This will be a hard habit to start, because I like getting things done early, and because there are so many things to tempt me away from You between 9 am and 10 am. I could commit to doing it...

Monday, 10/24: 9 a.m. - 9:45 a.m.
Tuesday, 10/25: 9 a.m. - 9:45 a.m.
Wednesday, 10/26: none because of bible study
Thursday, 10/27: 9 a.m. - 9:45 a.m.
Friday, 10/28: none because of Isabel's class party

I am convicted today to try to avoid things like gossip and TV shows that fill my head with thoughts that bring me down. Please forgive me for the gossiping I've already done today. Please guard my mouth today at Michele's house.