Questions

On Sacred Space today, some questions...


I imagine the Father and the Son deciding to come to me. Why do they do this? Because I'm their child, their creation, created in their image. Because they care deeply about what's going on for me and how they can use me for their benevolent purposes. As I type the words, little pinpricks of doubt pester me. Is this all in my head? I put off these thoughts. I am choosing to believe. 




What do they think and say about me as they travel? I imagine how I feel and think about Isabel and Lily. They love me that much. More. 




What gifts do they choose for me? What do they find when they arrive? I don't know what gifts God would give me. Hasn't he already given me everything I have? My husband, my children, my family, my health, my beautiful home, my beautiful life. When they arrive they find me, restless, anxious, wanting to believe but lazy about conditioning my mind. But well-intentioned.


I am the focus of a great love. The Spirit of divine love comes to abide in me. Does the Spirit find a warm welcome in me or do I ignore my guest? I imagine that I do ignore the Spirit, as I plan the girls' activities and the gift cards for Lily's teacher and the School's Out for Summer Party and the Arf costume and dinner and work. 


Am I a good pupil who wants to learn? I am not a good pupil, but I do want to learn. 


What is the Spirit teaching me right now in this period of prayer? I want to be more proactive, to listen and to act on God's words. I pray for help in this even as my mind wanders to the next thing. I pray for my husband today at work, for protection over my darling children. I am grateful.