Harry Potter

"If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do." (James 1)


Last night I was reading Harry Potter to Lily, and I got to the page when Harry makes a spiritual decision...


"Harry kept quiet. He did not want to express the doubts and uncertainties about Dumbledore that had riddled him for months now. He had made his choice while he dug Dobby's grave, he had decided to continue along the winding, dangerous path indicated for him by Albus Dumbledore, to accept that he had not been told everything that he wanted to know, but simply to trust. He had no desire to doubt again; he did not want to hear anything that would deflect him from his purpose. Harry thought that Aberforth knew what he was thinking and despised him for it."

Here is the crux of it for me:
He had no desire to doubt again; he did not want to hear anything that would deflect him from his purpose. 

What is my purpose? I said in my post yesterday...

"But spiritual strength is so admirable. It's at the top of my bucket list! To love no matter what, even when others around me aren't strong. To be the strong one, myself."

The means of doing this, the only means I know, is to believe in God. And to do the next right thing, according to Him, which is always some variation on putting others first. It is a state of mind in which I consider myself a channel, a conduit, for Him.

This is much harder when I doubt. The one who doubts is unstable, like a wave tossed on the sea. What is my purpose? To love no matter what, even when others around me aren't so lovable. How do I achieve it? Believe He exists, and act accordingly.