Trust and obey...and keep waiting

At the cross Jesus said, "Abba, Father, everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will."


I am growing anxious about my pending career change. My manuscript is with Katherine, and still no word. She doesn't appear to be taking this as seriously as I am. Or maybe she's just busy. Or maybe she read it and didn't think much of it and feels uncomfortable about telling me. All these thoughts have run through my head.

I pull away from them. I remember Jesus saying, Not what I will, but what You will. 

Not what I will, Lord, but what You will. I pray that You would show me if I need to be looking into other work, if I'm coasting, not pulling my weight. Show me, Lord. You know what I want, but I need to figure out what You want.

I pray for my manuscript in Katherine's in box, that she would find time to read it. I pray that You will move me forward in this process. But most of all I pray that You would give me the peace to wait on You.

You want me to trust You. I trust You Lord. I am trying to learn how to trust You.


I pray for Dad, who is spluttering spiritually. He is Yours. I pray for him, for Your plan for him. I love him. Show me how to love him better.

At the cross Jesus said, "Abba, Father, everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will."

Jesus asked for what he wanted first, and then said, in effect, but I accept what You want.

I pray that You would grant me the grace to write a novel that glorifies You, that the novel would get published and read, and that I could make enough money from it that I wouldn't have to go back to writing TV-related stories for websites. Yet I accept what You want, and what You would have me do. For Jesus this answer was clear; they were coming for him. You would either rescue him, or You wouldn't. For me, it's not so clear. But it will be more clear eventually.

Lord, I pray protection over Isabel and Lily today. I pray for their sense of empathy and love for others, that it would grow and grow and grow.

In Your son's name I pray,

Amen