Guessing game

In today's BSF passage, Isaiah 41:11-20, the Lord talks about satisfying his people's thirst in an obvious way "so that people may see and know, may consider and understand, that the hand of the Lord has done this."

This is what I long for. I want to see the hand of the Lord in my life. I want faith to be not a guessing game, but a conversation. (I talk, and then wait faithfully for God to answer. Then I act on what God says. And so on.) This is my struggle, because right now it does feel like a guessing game. Is God there and if so, what is He saying to me?

In this passage, God is telling his people that he will act in ways so that people may see and know, may consider and understand, that the hand of the Lord has done this. Lord, are you speaking to me in this passage? I feel like this is more guessing. I'll put that thought aside and consider how this verse relates to me. You are saying that You are present and involved, that You act in ways to demonstrate Your presence, power and love. Maybe I don't recognize You, because I'm not looking? Or maybe You have been silent these past weeks, and I'm meant to faithfully wait upon You,  so that when You do act, some time in the future,  I'll be able to see and know, consider and understand, that it's Your hand that's working.


Today I meet with the kindergarten teacher to discuss Lily. Please smooth the path for me, make the decision clear and put my mind at ease. 


I'm feeling restless, unsure of what to do next. I want to form a plan, to move forward in a work that inspires me and pleases You. I don't know what that is yet. Lord, will You show me? I'm just spinning my wheels. Thank you, thank you for Lee, and for his job, and for my family. Even if I never discover my professional purpose, I have so much to be thankful for. I want to stand up and contribute. Please show me how.


I pray for Your protection over my children. I pray for Sara to have an experience with Jesus in Your time. I pray for You to show me an opportunity to write a book about You by September 2011.


In Your son's name I pray.
Amen