But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving,considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.18 Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness.
James 3:13-18
I must ask forgiveness for the way I've handled myself with the Moultons. I have not sown peace, but discord, and now I'm reaping the consequences. Lord Jesus, I lay down this sin before You. I know that You will eradicate it, that You already have. In the meantime, I feel like I must do some next step, and I'm not sure what it is. I wrote what I consider to be a gracious email about it, and Jen hasn't written back. I'm afraid to talk to her, because I've done wrong and I don't know what to say. And also: the fact is, I DON'T want her daughter hanging around with my daughter. How do I apologize and say I did wrong, without giving the impression that I want to go back to the way things were? How do I swallow my pride and apologize without telling her why I said the things I said (that Hannah is a bad influence)? I DO think Hannah is a bad influence.
Lord, please guide me in the right thing to do. I don't want to shy away from it out of cowardice, but I also just don't know the words to say. What do I tell her when she talks about her kid not being a bad influence, and I want to disagree?
I pray for wisdom in this, that You would help me see the way forward. I don't want to have to call her. I will if You think it's necessary. But I really don't want to, so I want to wait on You. Yes, it's cowardice, but it's also not knowing what to say. Show me the way, Lord.
In Your son's name I pray,
Amen
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