Signs

Today I read another Old Testament account of God agreeing to give a man a sign that He'd heard his prayer and would answer. In 2 Kings 20, King Hezekiah asked for a sign that God would heal him as promised. Hezekiah said, "Have my shadow go back 10 steps...And the Lord made the shadow go back."

Lord, I have asked You to show me You exist. I've asked for Sara to have an experience with Jesus by February 5, and for You to show me an opportunity to write a book that glorifies You by September 2011. Lately I've been doubting You. But now again, today, I read a passage that signals your willingness to show me Your existence. I hold on in faith. Lord, if You make the miraculous happen with Sara, then how could I ever doubt You again? I want to "put feet to my faith" as Linda Dillow says. 


I continue to pray that You will show me what to do about Lily's schooling. I ask further that you would give me a deep peace about it. 


I want to pray about the return of my anxiety symptoms--shortness of breath, tightness in my chest. I am grateful that I know what this is, but I'm not pleased to be dealing with it again! I'm not sure what tack to take. Would Dr. Ali let me up my dosage of Zoloft without insisting that I do the impossible, and see a cost-prohibitive psychiatrist? It's not impossible, of course, but it would add to medical expenses that are already weighing heavily because of my dental bills. I want relief, but I don't feel right about spending money on a psychiatrist. Show me what You would have me do. Could this just be "breakthrough anxiety"? Might it go away on its own? I know that I'm in Your hands, and You're in control. I can live with it for the time being, but please show me if I need to seek help.


I pray for Lee, who is so anxious about this upcoming men's retreat. Is it answered prayer that he's going on the retreat and joining a bible study and joining the worship team? I know that I prayed for You to teach him Your ways. Thank You, Lord. Please ease his mind about the retreat, about all of it. I pray that he'll have fun, meet friends.


I pray for Isabel and Lily, that you would make them open to learning about You and to obeying me. I pray for my own sense of structure with them. Show me my next steps in guiding them.


I pray for Your protection over them, and I pray for their social skills, that they won't suffer as I did in school. 


What is next for me, Lord? I am chomping at the bit, professionally. But I will wait on You.


In Your son's name I pray.
Amen