Happy Birthday to me.

I am 40 today. Yesterday I mentioned that I was turning 40 to two women--one at BSF and the other was Michele Bauer. Both had already turned 40 (Michele just turned 42), and that actually comforted me. We are all getting older. I am grateful to still be here!

Lord, I want to be here for my children as they grow up. This is in Your hands, not mine, but I still ask You for that blessing. In my first 40 years, I have learned about You. In the rest of my time, I want to walk with You, enjoy Your presence and share in Your glory. As David said, "One thing I ask of the Lord--the thing that I seek after--is to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon His beauty, and to inquire in His temple."


Two people came to my mind during my bible study today. First Sara, then Lily. The passage was Isaiah 8:19-22. "When men tell you to consult mediums and spiritists who whisper and mutter, should not a people inquire of their God?...If they do not speak according to this word, they have no light of dawn."

In her sadness and desperation, Sara consults psychics from time to time. I don't blame her. But...
Lord, I pray that Sara will have some kind of experience with Jesus Christ by February 5. I pray that she'll find peace that only You can provide. I pray that You will bless her. I pray that You will guide her towards love. 


One of the BSF homework questions was "Where have you sought guidance today?" I'm trying to figure out whether to hold Lily back, because of her July birthday. I've sought guidance from her teachers and from several mothers. I haven't come away feeling like anyone's given me a definitive answer. Only God knows what's best for Lily. Lord, please show me what You have in mind for Lily. She is Your child; I am only her caretaker. I want to hold her back, but I am also wavering about it. She does make the cut-off. I can go around and around in circles here. Will you make this clear for me?


I pray that you will show me an opportunity to write a book that glorifies You by September of 2011.


I pray for today, for our family's time together at the restaurant, celebrating my birthday. I am going to celebrate the fact that I am still here, and that You are faithful. Please bless us today and always. Amen