Power

As I study God's word, the theme of the week appears to be God's power. For Next Generation Mentoring, we're reading The Power of a Praying Woman by Stormie Omartian. I found myself highlighting lots of verses in her first chapter, "The Power." I had just written my blog post about dreaming BIG, and this chapter confirmed and validated what I'd expressed. On page 17, she gives the verse I had in the back of my mind when I wrote it. "When you have Jesus as ruler of your life, you will come to know Him as the one 'who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.' (Ephesians 3:20)"

I've long felt confused by what exactly the Holy Spirit is. Omartian helped when she suggested that "you recognize the Holy Spirit of God as the power of God, and that you ask God to empower you to move into all that He has for you."

And then I got to my BSF homework today, and it was all about the power of the Holy Spirit of God. We had to look up nine passages that told about the work of the Holy Spirit. The very first one was from Exodus, and it described how God empowers artists and craftsmen with their abilities. This correlates with what I blogged about yesterday. I want to stop writing from my own power. I want to throw myself to the side and let God write through me. The bible says that God communicates with us, and I want to believe that He's reading my blogs and answering me. Something along the lines of, "Yes, I do that. I will fill you with my Spirit, and let that Spirit write through you. See, here in Exodus I did that for the artistic craftsmen."

So...what next? My mind is still scattered. And I have other responsibilities (my TV post for iVillage) that I need to get to. I will say this: For the time being, I am waiting on the Lord. You have something for me to do. I await seeing You drop it in my lap by September 2011. I expect that You'll make it clear how I should proceed once it does. And I will feel peace about it.


In the meantime: Lee is meeting with the financial counselor on Thursday. He will not allow me to come. So, I am trusting that the counselor alone will see if/where we need to make changes. Lord, I pray that the financial counselor will be intuitive, bright and persuasive. I pray that Lee will be open to his advice. I pray that Lee will come home and tell me he wants me to be more involved, and that he'll make it easier. I pray that Lee will want to go over our finances together. I pray that I will receive Your spirit of wisdom--how to better understand finances and how to emotionally support and love Lee in even this area. Maybe I am not the one to hold him accountable. I would love to not be the one to hold him accountable! But I cannot feel peace while I feel like no one is doing it.


I pray that Sara will have an experience with Jesus by February 5. Yes, I am now simply phoning this prayer in. But that's because I'm in waiting mode. I'm waiting to see You. I am expecting it.  

Amen